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We'll Always Have Paris

We'll Always Have Paris

First time I went to paris I was 16 years old. It was my first trip to Europe and my first time venturing out to the fashion world as an international model outside of Israel, my home.

 My first photoshoot in paris #babyvaleria

My first photoshoot in paris #babyvaleria

I was so excited and frightened. mostly frightened actually. I think my insecurity was always my biggest obstacle in everything I did. And back then as a little girl with so little self awareness, instead of thinking how lucky I am to get to have this experience of independence and adventure I was already playing scenarios in my head of the obstacles I'm going to face because I was too short for a model and my hair is not long enough and my eyes are not proportionate- you know just like those girls in the magazines. All this was before I even got on that plane. ah those tender years.

I got to paris and was picked up by the agency's driver at the airport, he right away took me to meet my bookers at the agency. I came in, they greeted me, gave me the metro map book, city's map, some euros for transportation, french cellphone and my paper with the day's castings. HUH?! I have never seen a metro in my life, I don't read french or a map for that matter, how does this phone even work and castings?! what castings? I just got here! But I was determined to kick ass so I grabbed my heels, took that metro book and went off on my way. Needless to say I didn't make it to any castings that day because I got lost. oh well.

Going through these situations from a young age really thought me how to get by anywhere and with very little. I truly cherish those days.

That first trip I stayed in Paris for about a month. Everyday was about the same. you get up, get dressed, put on your heels, grab some breakfast and head out for a day of castings. I didn't book any jobs my first time and I was very discouraged. Being a busy model in Israel to arriving to Paris and just sit there- it didn't help my already low self esteem back then. But that time matured me and made me face my own fears. I had no one there and there was no where for me to go but into my own head, it made me stronger.

I will be honest, I didn't like Paris. At all. Yes, the city was magical with all the night lights and the beautiful architecture but I wasn't there as a tourist, I was thrown in there and had 2 days to figure my shit while walking on stone pavements in my heels carrying my gigantic portfolio.

I remember neighbourhoods that stunk of urine and extremely rude people that wouldn't even try to guide you in the right direction if you didn't speak french. But I also remember the small little coffee shops I stopped at to take my heels off in a middle of my days, the quint libraries I found in random parts of town and the oh so effortless chic women I used to watch while waiting for the subway.

Paris introduced me to jazz, flats, Carla Bruni, cigarettes (little hobby I picked up between 16-19) and red wine and for that I will be forever grateful.       

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